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HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SWEETHEART! <3.

I LOVE YOUUUU SOOOOOOOOOOOO.

Well, I'm lowkey writing this before I have completely finished writing about the dates. You know, I have never enjoyed quite like this while doing something for someone ever before. LIKE, I WANT YOU TO LOOK AT THIS AND BE AS HAPPY AS POSSIBLE, like MWAH, I lowkey want you to go like, "aww, my boyfriend did this for me? He loves me so much, OH MY GOD, I should probably marry him!" Yayyyyyyy.

(sorry for being utterly disgusting and unbearably cringe).

This is not just a birthday present, or a gift, you know. This is like, something special, I've really really wanted to do for you from a very long time. I'm sorry I couldn't make it good enough, but I tried to make it decent enough, so that anyone who sees this doesn't get absurdly disgusted by it. I KNOW, THIS DOESN'T EVEN COME 1% CLOSE TO THE CARD YOU MADE FOR ME, I KNOW THAT'S UNBEATABLE, NO DEBATE😭. It was something so beautiful, I'll need to be reborn at least 5 times to just even think of something as creative. 
Everything, made and written by your sweet, pretty hands. I CAN NEVER. I can't even write properly lmao, let alone...making something like that. I can never imagine. But, as a guy who is a lot into computers and stuff, I tried to, you know, jog around here and there a little bit, and tried to make this, not so professional website. I had a lot of plans, you know, like, a fuck lot. But, this son of a bitch - Chickenpox got the best out of me. I wrote a song, a poem (which I'll chipka under this para or some other shitty page). I noticed something, while making this website. I noticed, that the colours, or the slides, or the pages, or the text didn't make this website pretty at all. Like, at all. It was YOU. Your Pictures, your damn pictures were the only thing that made this website the only pretty it is. Oh my god, even a slightest glimpse of you in my mind MAKES ME SO HAPPY. Please, never ever leave my side, Kshema.            I fucking love you more than anything.

Well, if you're reading this before looking at any of the pages, I really hope you like it. I mean, it wouldn't cross any expectations if you compare it to the absolute gorgeous envelope you gave me to, but I think this wouldn't completely suck.
If you're reading this, after you have looked at all the website, I hope you liked it. Even just a bit. It isn't very wonderful, but it still took a lot of time. I wish, it wasn't as completely miserable as I'm claiming it to be. 
Mwah.

              
                   I LOVE YOUR CHILDHOOD PICTURES SO FUCKING MUCH, UGHH!!!😭
                        Especially the above one, how can someone be so adorable?!?

FUCK THISSSSS! YOU JUST SAIDDD, UHHHHGHGFCUFEWWF, FUCK THIS FUCK THIS FUCK THIS. I CAN'T EVEN STATE SHIT INTO WORDS TO TELL HOW FUCKING MAD AM I. I NEVER EVER THOUGHT THIS WAS GONNA HAPPEN AGAIN. EVEN THOUGH I ACCEPT THAT FACT, I SIMPLY CHOSE TO IGNORE IT. "BHAI VEER KA BHAI YAWRRRR>>>>😫😭🎀✨" oh? "HE'S SO UEBEJEBE" ohhh. "I'M NOT INTO HIM😭" hmmm. "i was just appreciating his beauty😭😭, he's pretty majestic" accha ji. Oh hey! *shoots* sorry, I wasn't shooting at you, I was just testing out these magnificent new shotgun shells. Wow. "jawline, facial structure, hairs everything is so perfect. Like woahhh wtf. HE HAS SUCH PINK LIPS😭✋" something just broke. Ouch. Woaohhh. Damn, I convinced myself I'll never get hurt by things like these ever again. Well, ooops. "mai usse notice krrhi thi pichle kuch dino se😭✋" yeah. Sorry, I can't do this anymore. Such a fucking loser, ain't I? Getting insecure and jealous from someone 3 years younger than me. But aiye, thar's me. "have you seen him?" oh yeah :D, I have. Mogs me too hard, yay. I wanna write all kinds of fucked up shit, I wanna- fuck it, you won't ever trust me enough to compliment a guy again. I don't even fucking know if I want you to, but I don't want you thinking about it, so you better just write it up. So yeah, I do want you to do this again. But idk how will I stop myself from saying anything. So I won't say much today at all. Jesus fuck, I need to look better. 

Oh, anyway, sorry for being so, uhm, idk, dry to you? That day. I made up to it with this shitty poem I tried to write..

  ​ ​ ​ ​ ​ ​ ​ ​ ​ ​ ​ ​I’m sorry, my love, for the silence that stung,
  ​ ​ ​ ​ ​ ​ ​ ​ ​ ​ ​  Words couldn't slip from my lips, they were left there hung.
​ ​ ​ ​ ​ ​ ​ ​ ​ ​ ​ ​ I promise, from now, I’ll loose them right,
​ ​ ​ ​ ​ ​ ​ ​ ​ ​ ​             And keep only love for you every night.

​ ​ ​ ​ ​ ​ ​ ​ ​ ​ ​ ​       You are my moon, my endless sky,
​ ​ ​ ​ ​ ​ ​ ​ ​ ​ ​ ​      Without you near, my soul runs dry.
​ ​ ​ ​ ​ ​ ​ ​ ​ ​                           I love you deeply, more each day,
  ​ ​ ​ ​ ​ ​ ​ ​ ​ ​ ​ ​          Forever yours, come what may.

Well, ew. But uhm, I ain't as good as they say, and writing poems isn't really my department, I lowkey suck at them (maybe highkey). Plus, I wrote this out of idk, some random feeling I got from overthinking, so there's that. The ones I write in the novels are pretty decent though. Anyway, I'll probably make you read this first, so, yk, You get a good mood when you finish checking out the whole website. Or, I hope so. Enjoy, love. I do love you a lot <3.